HAPPY MOTHERS DAY

THE TIME IS NOW


If you ever going to Love me,
Love me now,while I can know
The sweet and tender feelings
Which from true affection flow,
Love me now.
While I am living
Do not wait till I'm gone
And then have it chiseled in
marble
Sweet words on ice cold stone
If you have tendered thoughts
of me.
Please tell me now.
if you wait until I am sleeping
Never to awaken,
There will be death between us
And I won.t hear you then.

So,if you love me.even a little
bit,
Let me know it while I am living
So I can treasure it.


I found this poem, in a cut out clippings
from my aunt last 2002.It was a dream come
true to me when I was able to visit her in
San Francisco but sad to say she died 3 days
after I arrived.

Excerpt from the letter:
I had a marvelous mother who loved , sacrificed
for and helped me in every way possible.All my years
of growing up,through college and eventually marriage,
my mother was at my side.now she is gone,and I was not able
to tell her what she meant to me, worse yet I did not treat her
as she deserved to be treated.

I was deeply moved by this letter,knowing now how it feels to
be a mother,My mom is also great ,she has lot of patience ,I've
seen her ups and down and how she loves my papa until the end.
We,children sometimes forget how important our mothers are,
the unconditional Love they are giving us and yet at times we
do not understand them,

To all mothers ,I congratulate you for being one of a kind,



HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO ALL

HOME......AT LAST

God's Garden Must Be Beautiful

God saw you getting tired,
When a cure was not to be,
So He wrapped His arms around you,
And whispered,"Come to Me",
You didn't deserve what you went
through,
So He gave you rest,
God's garden must be beautiful,
He only picks the best.
And when I saw you sleeping,
so peaceful and free from pain.
I could not wish you back
To suffer that again.


Papa at 84 passed away last February 19, 2009 at 11:15 am.
of Lung Cancer at St.Lukes Medical Center .It was also
my Mamas' birthday.It was indeed a celebration of life,
We will be missing you a lot........
We all know you're at peace........

"SO WHO'S THE GUY"

HAPPY VALENTINES TO EVERYBODY!!!!!

We all went to this stage of having crushes and of course having this First Love syndrome.I got this shock of my life when my daughter Erika asked me if she can have a date this Valentines day,Goodness,gracious WHAT???I told myself,I was not expecting this she is only 14 years old.quite young in my opinion.I have nothing against dating but I feel its not yet the time.So when will be the time?she asked me.
I remenber myself at her age,still playing Patintero and Sipa(outdoor game here in the Phils)with my friends in the neighborhood.Every weekend its a must for all of my friends in the pasilyo to be at our meeting place,since during the weekdays no one is allowed to play outside because of school except if there is no class.Reminiscing my childhood days makes me happy,we were a family then,every neighbors would attest to that.We are family back then,brothers and sisters anything whatever you call it,we cherish every moment of it,One time,during our summer vacation,there was this volleyball competition which we joined together with my friends Julie(now in Canada),May,Neneng,me and Jas and Helen(my 2 younger sisters).We represent our pasilyo(neighborhood),there I met my First Love, a typical tall ,dark and handsome guy,with a very nice voice (he was 16,I was 14)we became close,as usual, a typical reaction when a girl meets boy,(kilig to the bones)as what they say here.The feeling is unexplainable.The funny part is that when he visited me at the house and while talking to papa,as if he was interrogated by a police officer,we found out later that he was a distant relative.His grandpa was papas' 3rd cousin,so thats make him my nephew,Actually,I did cry a lot,no one ever knew that until now,as years passed by,I still fondly remember him a lot WHY NOT HIM??she asked,because it was meant to be that way,I got married at 31 to your dad ,despite what happened to us, you were the greatest blessing he gave to me.I maybe over protected mom you ever had but you will understand in time what I'm doing,enjoy your life while young,while I'm still by your side.I hope she Understand..........

AM I READY???

It has been sometime since my last blog,been sick for a while probably due to the present situation I am into,My mind are full of thoughts starting to explode but I kept on reminding myself be calm and be patient,keep still.
"Be ready,time to go to school",I remember Mama telling us on our first day of school,with our bags pack with our 'baon'(food),Be ready for an exam said our teachers after a long day of reviewing and memorizing those topics,you found out that classes are suspended,the teacher is absent,etc.How about being ready for your first dance, first kiss and LOVE. So who's the guy!!!(wait till my next post).We tend to set our lives planning and enjoying our present moment,seems natural to me but during my stay here at the hospital a lot of things had happened.DEATH,ARE WE READY FOR THIS???? SO whose afraid of dying??A friend always told me that death is the only natural thing in this world.probably true coz if its your time no matter what you do he always has the last say.comparing our lives to a candle.once lighted we have no idea when it will be consumed,when will the flame stops.Not everybody were given the gifts to live,life is full of mysteries,who would tell that when our mothers were giving birth to us we will be born,anybody can have a baby,but not all are sure if they live once they are pulled out on their mothers' womb.God has plans for us,for now what we can do is to follow his teachings,it may sound so difficult especially when our Faith is tested,which I know everyone in experiencing.I have my up's and down for sometime now,through this I became more understanding on some matters I at first did not understand,Be good,do good, share the blessings you have,we make a lot of mistakes but at the end Indeed Life is so simple.

I fondly remember those years especially during rainy season,we will go outside our house and play with the pouring rain then we will make mud cakes,

AT ROOM 418A

When my father was rushed to the hospital last Nov.27, he was on a 50/50 condition,we never thought that recovery on his part would be that of a miracle.At 84,still a busy man,he loves gardening to much.Recycling a basketball ball into a hanging pot for plants was his last project.He would do anything to keep himself very busy.While on confinement,I can only gazed at his frail body realizing that he's not that young anymore.I was at his bedside for almost a month and a half now together with my eldest sister who is also afflicted with the Capital C , while my other sisters had to worked.A lot of people had been asking our family how are we handling this tough situation.My father had always instilled in our minds that everything that is happening in our lives has a purpose,so just keep on praying,True enough, we had experience difficulties and hardship during our younger years without our neighbors knowing it and still they are wondering how we did it,probably we have been prepared for this situation.
This room has been our temporary home,we also have our neighbors all Cancer patients,At the pantry,I was able to talked to different people and hearing from their stories I guessed Papa(father) is still lucky enough to survived.During the time papa was in state of recovering(He was telling us that he was in a journey)We thought he was hallucinating probably because of the effect of the medicine intake,however he keep insisting on what happen in his journey,He told us that he already saw the place where he is going,he described it as a beautiful ,quiet and peaceful place,while he was telling it to us we just told him that it was just a dream but we knew already what was it all about.At times we feel sad of what will happen next but at the moment we feel happy for his recovery.
Last Saturday,Papa had a visitor,who else but my mama(mom)I know he was missing her(she visit him weekly and calls him from time to time),She is at home attending to my daughter who goes to school.Well at their age I still feel that love was in the air,You know why?????As I looked at them I saw my Papa with his wrinkled hand reaching Mama's hand holding it tight with his teary eyes,Touched by that.........so am I.

COUNT YOUR MANY BLESSINGS

FOR the past few days i've been busy browsing a lot of blogs wanting to know whats in it.actually this is my first time to used a laptop(thanks to my sister who lend it to us while were here at the hospital)Its quite amusing,I was able to contact and sent emails to my friends.I have lots of practicing to do,imagine composing 2 or 3 blogs to be posted only to find out that i deleted it and I mistakenly hit the wrong tab.Actually, I admire fast learners not to the extent that they will brag what they learn and what they know.As i see it,we were given different talents to share .God has given us different gifts for us to develop.As always we were told to be contented in what we have ,work hard for what you want but at times things happen beyond your control,you fail and it s hard to accept it even if you had tried your very best.
When I got married 15 years ago I only wanted to have a family like the one I was brought up.But it did'nt turned out that way.In 1994,the Lord bless us with a precious baby girl,When I was 2 months pregnant i found out i have an ovarian cyst and it had to be operated since it will affect the growth of the child.Scheduled operation should had been on my 7 month since the baby would be healthy enough but alas on my 4th month i had to be rushed to the hospital for the operation.I was advised that the baby would die since its not yet due.I kept on praying and seek divine intervention,(imagine I have to call even my dead relatives to help me).I still remember while on the operating table I guess the anesthesia injected to me did not take effect right away.I heard them talking about the baby.The operation was succesfull but no idea if the baby would live. but alas the baby is intact.(a miracle indeed)I was very thankful to my OB-Gyne who took care of me and the baby.So comes the 9th month I was rushed again to the hospital its time for the baby to come out(what does she looks like I told myself)On Nov 21, 1994.I gave birth to a 9.2 lbs baby girl named Danielle Erika.A blessing indeed.
Our blessings may not be material blessings but they are real blessing.We tend to take for granted the countless blessing we have,even when things seems to go wrong,.Let us thank him for what he has given us.

Back to Memory Lane

Last friday Jan. 9(Phils.Time)people through all walks of life participated in the feast of the Black Nazarene.We are originally from Quiapo,Manila near the Malacanang Area(office of the President of the Phils)before we tranferred here at Cainta,Rizal.we lived at a compound(pasilyo)with 17 apartments (17 families+++).I have fond memories at that place since we were all raised there from childhood up to the time i got married.What i missed about it is the closeness among our neighborhood especially during special occasion such as birthdays,christmas,anniversary and other fun fair activities.Why?because its the only time we can play with our friends and eat a lot of goodies. We have learned to share lots of things.We were one big family as I describe it.During the 70's,we started the Blocked Rosary with Our Mother Mary.Every evening at 7 ,we pray the rosary and the image of our mother is transferred to the next house and so on, The anniversary of our Blocked Rosary is after the Feast of the Black Nazarene.So what makes it different from the other celebration I guess its how we celebrate it.I tell you.you will enjoy every minute of it.Why????

Happy Three Kings

How do you celebrate Three kings?Just like christmas before the clock strikes at 12 we hang our socks and put our shoes at the window awaiting for the Tatlong Hari(3 kings) to pass by expecting them to put something inside. During my childhood years I remember I was the last one to go to sleep coz i was excited to see what they looked liked , curious as I was, i slept near the door thinking i would be awaken when the door opens but alas when I woke up i forgot that i was wearing my shoes. I did cry a lot at that time.Anyway my other sister was good enough to put my socks so i still got my candies.Time surely flies ,I missed those years.HAPPY THREE KINGS TO ALL>>>>>>.

welcome 2009

2008 was a very crucial year for us,2 members of the family is afflicted with the big C,but still lot of blessings were given to us especially on financial matters.We have to spend Christmas and New Year for the first time at the hospital.We almost loss our dad and my sister is undergoing her chemo but as always my mom always told us to keep on praying .Never stop to call on divine intervention.We are seven girls,4 of them had to attend the financial matters,on my part I'm the caregiver (i loss my job 3 years ago),Lot of patience required.At times I do cry a lot but what keeps me going probably is because despite the fact lots of problems arises be it emotional or financial there"s always someone up there who knows what you need.
So whats for 2009,I'm very happy that finally i was able to contact my childhoodfriend Marissa ,our communication was cut short 10 years ago.I had my family at my side and a daughter who i know loves me and understand me despite my shortcomings.
And so 2009 I welcome you with open arms trials and hardship may arise but in the end for sure there's always a rainbow after the rain.